Breaking it down & Bearing it all

So I'm just a little... behind. Most people learn that they control their happiness in life Much sooner then I did. This revelation was new to me. I came to a point a little while back (ok, I'll admit it- it was last week) were I felt like my life pretty much stunk. Let me Break it down for you.

Money, Kids, Health, Energy, Teaching, Cleaning and Family.
That about sums it up and can also pretty much break you down.

But on to the good part, the part about Happiness. One day, I was seriously praying and reading the scriptures trying to find a sense of peace and balance. I wanted some miraculous vision or a voice to come and speak to me. I believe it's possible, so why can't it happen for me? Well that's not how the Lord works, especially when He's working with someone as slow as me.

I came upon this passage: "O Lord, according to my faith which is in thee, wilt though deliver me from the hands of my brethren; yea even give me strength that I may burst these bands with which I am bound." (1 Nephi 7:17)

What has ME bound? Do I REALLY have enough faith to ask God for His help? Do I know Him? Do I trust Him?

I took this scripture into this context- Nephi asked his Father in Heaven for help, he did it "according to my faith which is in thee," and asked "wilt thou deliver me" and "give me strength that I may burst these bands with which I am bound." So I tried it, I prayed and I asked.

I'll admit, I was disappointed at first because "nothing" happened. What took me a couple of hours to realize was that I had peace. Heavenly Father blessed me with peace, and with that came happiness. Funny thing is, it wasn't until days later that I realized nothing changed in my life, except me (umm I said I was slow). I was happy. It doesn't matter that all the same stuff is going on around me, my list is the same. You know though, somethings Are better, but those things are better because I'm looking at them better. With peace I see things for what they are. My trouble making kids are now energetic little kids, and their mom isn't running all over with her head cut off, which makes them happy and helpful. I cut back, with no remorse. The balance came to me like second nature. With the help of my Father in Heaven, I changed. I have Faith & Happiness in difficult times, I feel my Saviors Love. I know He is a prayer away, I have Faith in Him. Even if I don't see an Angel descend from heaven, I feel the peace and I choose Happiness.